Wow, I'm doing so great now! Crazy how only a month later I finally feel normal (total lie, I cried today at a classmate's memoir about not feeling normal.

It's been... kinda chill recently? I made a cool, new friend =)!!! Someone I kinda had a friend crush on and now we're friends for realsies :3

I still have moments where the same sentiments as before arise in my mind. But I'm trying to block it out... kinda. Maybe that's not such a good thing, though.

I hope you get well soon, ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ. I get sick a little more every day that passes by in which I cannot reach my hand out to you.

I wear my heart on my sleeve. Everything, from the bottom of your heart, affects mine. One frown from you brings me eternal sadness.

I'd swallow you whole to keep you safe, but instead I drink down my feelings to save you from my unconditional, suffocating love.

Maybe I'm looking into it too deeply. But the dull look in your eyes gives me no mercy. What I would do to ignore that face, to feel the pain slip.

Anyway, I always look back to you. ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ, look at me with love once again. I beg of you. Your word commands my very being.

Sometimes, I wish others would assume me and my best friend were dating. So that we'd be tied together in everyone's minds. So that we'd be inseparable.

Typing it out, it sounds strange. But in my mind, it is the only way they'd be able to stick.

I pray that one day, a lovely person fills me with so much love that I never have to feel this heartache ever again. Real, honest love would heal me. Truly.

Maybe I'm just jealous at the love surrounding me. Yeah, that's probably it.